Rob- Saturday Morning

So the next morning Rob and I woke up and started fooling around again. I let him tell me what to do and be forceful, I let him choke me a little, and be rough. It was clear that he was so into it. 

As I've written before, I have trouble bringing up to my partners that I want to be spanked. For some reason it is so embarrassing. I even found it hard with Rob, who basically told me that he wants to spank a girl.

So we fucked the way he wanted in the morning. My roommates were both home, and being that I live in a tiny apartment, the walls are too thin for spanking anyway. We were laying in bed, contemplating what we wanted to do for brunch. I asked him if he remembered the brunch where Sam talked about the nun who wanted him to spank her. He did, and I told him that the second I knew I wanted to hook up with him was when he responded to Sam and said he would definitely spank a girl. I told him I had some serious spanking fantasies and wondered if he might want to spank me some time.

Kid in a candy shop. He's always fantasized about spanking but never done it. I told him he could, but we'd have to wait for my roommates to leave.

YES! someone I actually like, who likes me to is into spanking. I was so excited. 

And then I remembered. He's moving to Denver.

Fucking Denver. I hate my life.

What I'm thinking about

I'm thinking about my two nights with Sean last week. About a couple things. First off, Sean has more sex than anyone I know. Seriously.  In high school and college he always always always had a new girlfriend. Then came of Senior year of college when he was hooking up with everyone. He was hooking up with my roommate. He was hooking up with my friend from studying abroad. He was trying really hard to hook up with my other roommate. 

Then after college, he's had one serious relationship and dated a million girls. The serious girlfriend was this girl named Margaret.  He told me that one thing he loved about Margaret was that she was always up for having sex and for letting him do whatever he wanted. 

After spending these two nights with him, doing "whatever he wants", he tells me its the hottest, dirtiest sex he's ever had. And the first time he's done a lot of things he's always wanted to do. Was he lying to me about Margaret? Or is he just as shy about his kinks as I am?

If Sean, the most openly sexual person I know, won't even talk with his partners about his real desires, how do people ever end up having kinky sex? I mean, I've read the internet. I know people are having this kind of sex, but how do they find each other?

Kinky Sex with Colleagues

So I'm not much one for hooking up with my coworkers. 

Haha. That was a lie. I think I've only had one job that didn't lead to me hooking up with someone from the company. In high school, I was a naughty naughty girl and hooked up with my college age boss in the basement of the bookstore I worked in. We would shut down the computer at 4:15 and it took 45 minutes to run all the programs (ohhh remember what computers used to be like?) And we'd fool around, sometimes I'd let him unbutton my pants and slip his hand in. Once, after months of begging, I gave him a blow job. It was my first one and also the last shift before we both went back to school. 

In college, I fooled around with the other waiters at the restaurant I worked at. At my first job out of college I fucked the summer temp. Yes, on his last day I let him buy me drinks and then bend me over his dorm bed. (he was still in college *blushes*). 

So now I can't remember the one job where I didn't hook up with someone. Maybe my first job as a camp counselor at 14? that must have been it!

Now I have a massive crush on a guy at my office. I think he is at least attracted to me. I want him so bad. But I want to date him not just sleep with him! 

So what about that? What if I start dating him? How open can I be about my kinky desires? I suppose I could test the water, but what if things went horribly awry, and he told everyone?