Bridal Shower!

I'm going to a bridal shower today, and even though its not *technically* a lingerie shower, the bride is a very good friend of mine and I bought her lingerie anyway. Far more exciting than anything on her registry!

 A few months back she expressed her boredom with her sex life, and I was trying to encourage her to get a little more kinky. 

So I bought her this- its the retro garter slip from Victoria Secret.  I was SO jealous because I want it. I also sent it to Sean to "get a male stamp of approval."

Or just flirt with him a little. Although, the model looks a bit like my younger sister. I hope he doesn't bring that up.

I also hinted in the email that I had maybe had a little something for his trip. I don't know if he's into lingerie, but I guess we're about to find out.

Out of the Blue Phone Call

I got a phone call at 10 pm last night from Sean. He said that I, "had been on his mind in all the worst ways." He wanted to know if he could come and visit me over the long weekend.

Now, this is a surprise. And let us not forget what falls over this upcoming long weekend. Valentine's Day.

This is beyond unexpected.

It certainly lifted my spirits after that disappointing email from Rob!

Rob's Response

I heard back from Rob today. He encouraged me to come and visit him, but said that he wanted to keep my visit on friendly terms.

I, being the prideful girl that I am, responded that of course we would keep it on friendly terms. I wrote that I thought that after our last email on the subject it wouldn't have even needed to be discussed further. Then, and here's the real kicker, I said that I was seeing someone quite seriously and actually apologized for not being more forthcoming in my previous email.

He immediately wrote back and profusely apologized for mistaking my intentions. Then he congratulated me. Yes, congratulated me. 

Oh, I'm such a liar. But I was so miffed by his response! I wonder if he's seeing someone. I can't believe he doesn't want to fuck me while I'm there.

So now I am stuck going to Denver on a friendly trip. No sex. No spanking. And after being a terrible little brat I really need one.

Business Trip to Colorado Springs

I have an upcoming business trip to Colorado Springs. It's in 6 weeks, so I have to start making my flight arrangements now. It has not escaped my notice that Colorado Springs is only about 45 minutes away from Denver. I'm thinking that I'd like to go and visit Denver... and stay with Rob. I don't know if I should email him or what. He told me not to come for New Years because he didn't want a long distance relationship, but a couple of things have changed since then. Namely, I'm leaving the country for a year starting in June. I'm going to spend a year teaching in Chile. 

I wonder if those macho latin men like spanking naughty bottoms...

Ben's January Texts

I think Ben has me on a monthly schedule, because I got a text from him today.

Have you been behaving yourself? I wasn't going to respond, because I felt like I was done with him. But then I was laying on my bed and started getting hot for him.

No I've been sucking too much cock.

I knew a slut like you would have a mouth full of cock. Has your boyfriend learned to punish you yet?

No, the last punishment I had was your belt and then your cock.

Sounds like you need both of those again.

At this point I'm no longer regretting the text, because I'm on my bed masturbating. So much for me and the catholic priest

Business Meeting in Seattle

I was at a conference in Seattle last week for work. This time there were about 15 people from the different branches of my company in attendance, including two young men. Two very attractive young men. Usually I travel exclusively with middle aged married women, so this was quite a turn of good luck.

The director of sales from our jersey office adores me, and had told me that she had a guy coming she thought I would like. Apparently she told him the same thing. I was pleasantly surprised to see that he was quite attractive when he showed up. We ended up hanging out for the first two days, and then the second night, we all went dancing at a club. He was pretty much all over me and I actually had to be the one who said, "Jacob. Everyone here is from work, you have to be a little more discreet!"

So he walked me home that night and we ended up falling into bed together. We're making out on the bed and I unbutton his dress shirt, and all of a sudden notice he's wearing a shit-load of catholic medallions. Oh yes, turns out he's about as Catholic as they come. 

He's so catholic, he doesn't believe in the following things:

1) Abortion

2) Birth Control

3) did I mention birth control???

4) Premarital Sex

5) Masterbation. MASTERBATION.

AND if that wasn't bad enough- he's super republican. We got into a political discussion, okay argument would have been a more appropriate word,  in bed. I was getting upset with his clearly ridiculously rigid beliefs. So he pinned me under him and called me a liberal brat and told me it was seriously turning him on.

It was turning me on too. Here was 28 years of pent up sexual aggression on top of me, pinning me down and telling me I was a naughty girl for my political beliefs. He actually called me that! He was very aggressive and dominant and kept calling me "bad" and "naughty."

Clearly he's into the dominance thing. I have little thumbprint bruises up my side and arms.

Now all I can think of is the two of us dating and having these huge political debates, and then having him put me over his knee, pull down my panties, and spank my liberal ass. oh how can I be so turned on by someone who is against everything I believe in? 

New Years

I definitely meant to write this blog last week, but I guess it didn't happen.

So about six months ago I decided that I wanted a change in my life

As long as I can remember, even before it was a sexual thing to me, I wanted to be spanked and punished. When I turned 26 I realized how sexually frustrated I'd been. With the exception of the 4 months I dated Andy when I was 21, I've never had enough spankings.  Andy spanked me one time about 2 years after we broke up, and another guy I was dating briefly gave me a spanking in 2004. That's it. So for 4 months and two nights I was happy and satisfied- the rest of my life, not so much.

That had to change. All I did was start this blog and decide to be only the littlest bit more active in my search for a compatible partner. The results have been nothing short of astounding. By posting an ad in public with my real desires I found two people to spank me that I find (or found) attractive and it was way less awkward than I thought it would be.

The more amazing thing to me is the partners that I already knew. Just by being honest I found that  two men who I already had great friendships with and was attracted to were interested in spanking me (or, in Sean's case, interested enough to try). 

I'm so happy that I found the courage to make a real change in 2008.  I think pursuing this has given me so much confidence in myself. I really have stopped giving a damn about what others think and that is making me a more attractive person. I'm getting asked out so much more than I ever have before and the boost to my self esteem has been amazing.